and then i get to have a week off, which also includes a trip to the coast with ben and 9 consecutive sleep ins....and man am i looking forward to a break! even though it's only been 8 months since i had a big break (that one was 5 weeks) and it's only 4 months since i had 10 days off at xmas, i'm exhausted...
guess that has a lot to do with almost every area of my life and the changes that they have witnessed in the last 6 months! and this is a little weird, but usually as december comes to and end and we approach not only the dreaded 'new years eve' but a new calendar year (which for me also includes my birthday) i start to get a little agitated - not to mention in previous years i have also had to live through another christmas where i seem to be the only person without a partner...
soooo ordinarily that time of year is not the best for me and i get into something of a reflective and 'blue' mood, which can last anywhere from a day to a number of weeks...but the good news is that 2008 was ENTIRELY different...and yes i'd been single for another year, and yes i still had to attend a new years eve thing (and it was bad...) and yes i had a birthday, but for some reason i had a really good feeling that maybe just maybe this year (ie 2008) was going to be different...i had a feeling that it was going to be 'my year'...
guess i was right! see i made a huge career change in november last year which continues to go really well and i find work a much more fulfilling and enjoyable part of my life than i have done probably in my entire working life - i actually feel as though i am finally heading in the right direction, whereas previously i felt as though i was 'achieving' for everybody else despite it not really being what i wanted for myself - my study continues to go really well and i found out that they will accept me into the Masters programme, and i met ben...
sooo whilst everything is great, there has been an enormous amount of change - and whilst change is good, sometimes it has the effect of upsetting our carefully balanced apple-cart, and in my case, a routine that i had become very comfortable with - and don't get me wrong, i am not SO routine that i can't or don't deal with change, but i guess i had gotten into a groove that seemed to be working for me...
so perhaps, now that two major parts of my life have changed DRAMATICALLY and the other remains stable coupled with me not forseeing any other changes in coming months, things will settle down a bit and i might start expending my energy on just 'being' rather than adapting to all the change...
and universe might i say this: thank you for helping me be patient enough to remain hopeful that things would go my way even when there were times when it absolutely looked like they wouldn't! the changes are welcome, and i hope, here to stay...
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