it's been a funny old day

really, and only now, as it's end approaches am i feeling a little bit more together...

started off with me waking up at 7am (altho i didn't have my alarm set until 8.45am) feeling cold! can summer really be nearly over? it's only the 16th of feb? altho having said that both the pre season AFL and Super 14 competitions both started this weekend - these are, after all, winter sports! but of course it's a confusing time as cricket is still on......

i had a 10.30am appointment but as i left the house just before 10am (without either earrings or my sunnies) i had a terrible feeling that in fact my appointment was at 10am! which would have proved to be something of a problem as the drive to the appointment is in fact just over 35 minutes! so i spent the entire trip trying not to speed too much and telling myself that in fact even if i only got 1 hour of a usually 90 minute session, that would be ok....

of course, i got there at 10.26am to find my session started at 10.30am. phew...

the session was hard for me - what i wanted to do in this session was start to work on how i can get in touch with my 'body cues' when i find myself in stressful situations (i'm not going to bore you with the entire details or history of how this has come about, suffice it to say i think that i am not as aware as i could be of the physical cues available to me in stressful/confronting/challenging situations, and i think that if i were, then i might behave differently) and i just left feeling like maybe it was all too hard - that the sorts of things i wanted to learn would be insurmountable - ever had days like that? kinda like starting something and wondering if, despite all the effort you know you will put in, you still may not get there? good, well you know how i was feeling then...

then i drove across town (saturday lunch time thru the CBD - not a good look - do all the bloody weekend drivers who have no idea what MERGE means come out at midday on saturday??) and picked up my lovely friend T and we drove to Paddington where along the way we must have picked up the 'parking fairy' as we got what my friend Anne would call a 'rock star carpark' in william st - day seems to be getting better :-)

had a lovely lunch, a good chat, a micky's chocolate thickshake (sorry Kirst, you weren't there and i couldn't resist) and a stroll through the markets where between us we bagged out just about every Gen Y person who either bumped into us because they were too busy on their phones or talking to their other similarly rude Gen Y friends and not bloody well looking where they were going? don't they teach them anything about etiquette these days or am i just getting old??? now you know my day must be getting better because i'm on the soapbox about something - in fact i think i could dedicate an ENTIRE blog entry to Gen Y (but that's for another day...)

having dropped T off home i made my way to Chatswood to see if some retail therapy might help me ditch the sombre mood i found myself in...managed to find 2 great books at DJ's (thanks sister, used the birthday voucher you got me), went into T2 to smell all their lovely teas and then got bored (yep, you heard it, bored in a shopping centre - see now you know that something isn't quite right today) and decided to head home...

thought i might sit down and watch a movie that i'd taped from foxtel but to my absolute delight as i scroll through the online guide i notice that Carlton's (yes my beloved navy blues) first game in the pre season comp would be broadcast live on fox! happy days...any ideas of watching a movie are quickly dispensed with as i make a cuppa and settle in for the first AFL game since mid august!

Blues won - now i'm not going to get ahead of myself and i'm going to try and curb my enthusiasm (after all, they've had the wooden spoon so many times in recent history, they could start a shop! and they've won the pre season comp 2 out of the last 3 times, even tho in the real season they can't make it out of the bottom 2) but they were good! they fought hard, two of my faves are back from injury and i admired the commitment of a young bunch of players - go Blues...

did some housework, cooked myself a nice dinner, spoke to one of my best friends and suddenly i don't feel so sad :-)

amazing how the little things in life can make a difference...