yep, that’s how I feel
right now. And sure, I knew that
re-entering the workforce, might occasionally bring this up, but I guess as
everything had been going so well, I didn’t really think that it would come up
again…so mostly, I’m unprepared for this…
maybe that’s naïve, but
really? I just did not see this coming…
not only do I feel as though
I’ve sold my soul, I sometimes feel that Sarah is invisible at times (and that
is just not a good place for me to be) and honestly, I have questioned whether
the money is worth it? truth is, it isn’t and as I replied to my BFF yesterday
when she asked me when I’ll know it’s time, ‘when the mortgage is paid off’…
so it’s true, rejoining the
workforce has MANY many positives and I do LOVE the job, most of the people and
my team, but really, it is a compromise and every day I feel as though I need
to leave a big part of myself behind…and I don’t like that…
nope, I don’t like that one
little bit…so today was difficult, and sure, I woke up with a headache and sore
throat after going to bed at 9.20pm, so that did not help things….
and true, I don’t feel
trapped like I did historically when I felt like this, so that’s a plus, but
still, I do feel as though a bit part of who I am isn’t getting a daily workout…and
that sux…
yep, it sux
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