weird...

so not long after my last post (it might be time) Ben texts me...says he's bored and will i entertain him...honestly i was a bit miffed...not really miffed, more thought it was a bit odd - and whilst i will wholeheartedly admit to contacting him occasionally when i feel lonely, i have never done it when i was bored...

wonder what he thinks is going on with us now?
does he think we are friends?
that i owe him something?

am i reading too much into it (probably...)

but fuck, i was a bit, well if i'm being honest, and i should coz it's my blog, i was a bit repulsed - seemed to have a sexual overtone to it...

so i didn't bother picking up his call when he rang....

maybe i'm learning?