invisible...

interesting, that the title of this post was intended to let me talk about Paul Auster's 'Invisble' which i've just finished reading, and honestly, it was a disappointment! compared to The Brooklyn Follies which i adored, the ending of this one was well, sloppy....

sorry Paul, but i didn't enjoy it! once the protagonist died and it became the other's perspective it just stopped for me...

interesting too that invisible is how i felt yesterday with my boss! i am so annoyed and disappointed by her at times - don't get me wrong, usually, we get on very well and I enjoy working with her, but before i decided to take a full time role with her, i did have a big think about how i might handle her sometimes blunt beyond words approach...

and sadly, for about only the 2nd time in our working relationship, she was like that yesterday, the only day i would have appreciated a 'thank you, you've done a great job'...but no, when i chose to reflect on how much we'd achieved in 5 short months she didn't once say yes, great job, well done...no! all i got was you haven't done the thing i wanted six months ago....which is really the reporting line change of one team into another area (not really being driven by me) and then when i asked her to sign some things she has been asking for and she didn't understand the contents of the letter (which incidentally is EXACTLY what she asked for when we did the same thing a month or two back) and i started to explain, she yelled at me!

nice! really fucking nice way to end my year at work....NOT!

so after that meeting my day went decidely pearshaped as i played her words over and over in my head all afternoon and into my evening.....

sure, there are times when maybe i do talk over her (usually when she's not listening to me or when she has changed her mind for the nth time and i want to yell at her that i'm not actually a fucking mind reader!) but in this case her words were just mean....and i think, largely unwarranted - in addition to telling me this, she also said that i am not very good at reading people (maybe she meant her - and true, she's not easy to read) and that i need to listen!

funny really, coming from her...

but maybe there is something in it for me - in my working relationship with her....maybe, although i'm going to do my best not to spend my entire 2 weeks off (yes, 2 whole weeks to myself...yay!) thinking about it!

ok, well, i feel better having blogged about it - always do! thank god writing is cathartic...

speaking of writing, hope to finish my little writing project by early Jan so i can decide if it's going to be shipped off to a publisher!

have a wonderful xmas and stay tuned for more ramblings into 2012!

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