grateful...

is how i feel really

despite a shocker day at work - seemed everyone had attitude today, lots of bad moods and 'tone', some from people i normally get on well with, so much that by 5pm when i had to leave to get to the specialist (another story there!) i was glad to see the back of the place (and this is rare) but also i started to wonder if it was me? was any of it my shit and my projection onto others?

as far as i can tell i was in a good mood, busy yes, needed to get a lot done yes, but not in a bad mood...guess in the end, everyone elses rubbed off on me!

so then, i leave on time to get to specialist on time (coz i am respectful of others...) and for the 2nd time in 2 visits she is running more than 15 minutes late - no phone call, no text...imagine if i turn up late, i have no doubt she wouldn't wait for me and i'm paying her? fucking joke - i have NO idea what they teach them at medical school but some social skills and gee i don't know, a skerrick of empathy would be good!

i get home with enough time before tennis to call my parentals, and i have a good chat to mum and she shares with me a story about some of their closest friends....

let's call them A & V...lovely older couple who they have been friends with for years, they go to the races together and i see them most xmas's when i'm home visiting...turns out he has dementia and it's really impacting him now...and my mum recounted to me a story that V told her last week: that A had gotten up in the night, unable to get comfy in the bed, gone to each bedroom in their house in search of a comfy bed, and then come back to their bedroom and stood in the door crying and asking what would happen to him...

breaks my heart....for her, for him, for them both....and even though it wasn't the best day i am GRATEFUL that i am ok, that my parents are doing fine...

so thank you universe for looking out for the people i love  xxx