800th post!

wow, turns out this is my 800th post...can you believe that? well, i can of course, since writing is one of my all time favourite pastimes!

so following the 'bubble girl' post last, it seems that since i had essentially left to the universe what would happen next, universe has indeed provided...

and i was not going to say a whole lot of stuff that had been flowing through my head since friday, but fuck it...this is my blog, i don't care who reads it and i think i need to get it out of my head

having this person re-appear in my life just about a year ago has been interesting, allowed me to really put the new me into action, exhausting (without a doubt), mostly one sided, draining and frankly, by the time she left here on sunday afternoon the only words ringing in my head were 'sort your fucking shit out'...

seriously! is she the ONLY person on the planet who thinks she's tired? is she the only person to ever have had a husband (who's lovely BTW), 2 kids (also lovely), a business that they run and complain constantly about how difficult her life is, how mentally exhausted she is (seriously, if i hear that expression one more time i will most likely stab the person who says it - she said it so many times in the course of 3 days, i found it hard to imagine anyone could convince themselves they were mentally exhausted, rather than doing something about it)....

seriously! take a long fucking hard look in the mirror and sort it out! any conversation that starts out about someone else ends up being about her, every attempt at empathy quickly becomes sympathy and a comparison to her situation, almost everything comes back to a discussion about the inadequacies of her parents (admittedly they were a bit odd)...i found myself thinking how sad it is that someone who's 42 has little or no understanding of social graces and still thinks it's ok to blame her parents - seriously?

YOU ARE 42 I wanted to yell out to her on many occasions over the weekend, but no, i held it in and tried to empathise (i at least know how to do this)....

so, she dumps me by text today - that's grown up isn't it? yep, when i sent her a thank you text for the chocolates she bought me i got something like 'i've done a lot of soul searching and i don't think we're a good fit'...

hilarious, and yet true...we have little or nothing in common and not for the first time in weeks i am able to reflect on my own journey and feel VERY proud of the person I am, the work i have done and the decisions i have made in the last coupla years...

sooooo onwards and upwards...sure i'm a wee bit sad, but mostly i'm just relieved that i won't have to listen to her self indulgent crap anytime soon!

nite x